Irrfan Khan on fighting Cancer: Pain felt more enormous than God

20th June 2018

Diagnosed with the Neuroendocrine tumor, Irrfan Khan shared this saddening news on over the social media platform. The 'Blackmail' actor was also seen in the Lord's cricket ground a few days ago enjoying the England vs Pakistan Match and the actor has now spoken his heart out leaving a note from London.

The actor says, "I was travelling on a speedy train ride, had dreams, plans, aspirations, goals, was fully engaged in them. And suddenly someone taps on my shoulder and I turn to see. It's the TC: Your destination is about to come. Please get down." I am confused: No, no. My destination hasn't come. No, this is it. This is how it is sometimes." He further adds "The suddenness made me realise how you are just a cork floating in the ocean with UNPREDICTABLE currents! And you are desperately trying to control it."

He continued, "As I was entering the hospital, drained, exhausted, listless, I hardly realised my hospital was on the opposite side of Lord's, the stadium. The Mecca of my childhood dream. Amidst the pain, I saw a poster of a smiling Vivian Richards. Nothing happened, as if that world didn't ever belong to me.
This hospital also had a coma ward right above me. Once, while standing on the balcony of my hospital room, the peculiarity jolted me. Between the game of life and the game of death, there is just a road. On one side, a hospital, on the other, a stadium. As if one isn't part of anything which might claim certainty – neither the hospital nor the stadium. That hit me hard."

In an emotional state, Irrfan ended saying, "I was left with this immense effect of the enormous power and intelligence of the cosmos. The peculiarity of MY hospital’s location – it HIT me. The only thing certain was the uncertainty. All I could do was to realise my strength and play my game better."

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