(Cover) - EN Showbiz - Michelle Williams feels sad just as often as she feels happy.

The actress has six-year-old daughter Matilda with late actor Heath Ledger, who died of an accidental prescription drug overdose in 2008.

Michelle is coming to terms with his death, but it hasn't been easy. She admits to finding things hard, but insists that is no different to how many of her friends feel.

"I can't say that I'm not sad, I can't say that those things aren't true and that people aren't making those correct correlations to events and actuality, but I try because I have no choice, because I have a child to make something out of it," she told the December edition of UK magazine Elle. "To make something out of us. To literally remake it. Yes I am sad. I'm sad as often as I'm happy. And so is everyone that I know."

The 31-year-old sees herself as similar to many other women. She's often asked how it feels to portray so many "fragile and strong" characters, but Michelle insists that describes all females in the world.

She doesn't like to talk directly about Heath, but gave some insight into how she eventually started working through her grief.

"I went to see this guru and I got to the beginning of the line and he said, Your past is behind you,' and it was a huge revelation. It's behind me. It's not all I can see anymore. And I have to put it behind me though I don't want to. And some days I wilfully chose not to, but I have to put it behind me if I want to move forward," she explained.

Michelle has had a difficult life in many other ways. She moved out of her family home when she was 15 and became legally emancipated from her parents. It was so she could decide when and where to work as an actress, but it made things tough.

"Whenever I think about that period of time I just think it's amazing that I'm as intact as I am," she explained. "For the longest time I felt like I was just losing all the time, flailing, losing, flailing, losing. Like I just couldn't manage life because I was trying, without any life skills of guidance for it. I know it seems like an obvious thing, but I didn't know you had to go see the dentist. I didn't go to the dentist for ten years. I couldn't make anything, anything, when I moved out. I remember learning how to boil water and splashing my face with it when it was scalding hot." (C) Cover Media