(Cover) - EN Showbiz - Cameron Diaz has been a tortured person in the past, which is why she sees a therapist.

The Hollywood star is renowned for being relaxed and happy and loves having fun when shes shooting movies. Although many presume she is a happy-go-lucky sort of person, the 38-year-old hasnt always been that way.

She found her 20s hard and struggled to see the best in people or situations, something shes glad shes finally been able to change.

I used to be a very, very, very cynical person and Ive gotten less cynical. When I was in my 20s, and when I was a child, I was not very happy. Im a dark person, Im a really dark, brooding person. No, Im kidding. Im not a tortured person. I have been in my past but I dont like to project that. But Im a realist. I see things how they are and its hard to pretend that theyre anything different, she told the June issue of UK magazine Elle.

I see a therapist. Ive seen a therapist for ages. I think the most important thing to do is to go some place thats safe, where you can talk to somebody who has no agenda, who you can unload your sh*t on.

Cameron has a hugely successful career but she still strives for more. She constantly pushes herself and always tries to remember to stay focused so she can achieve her goals.

That means shes always travelling from country to country for meetings and movie shoots, hence shes rarely in one place for long.

I hate living out of a suitcase, and yet its what I do, she said.

[Im in the same bed for] two weeks tops. The idea of being in one place freaks me out. Or not freaks me out, I just dont Im always like, OK, lets keep movin. I gotta tend to business. (C) Cover Media