(Cover) - EN Showbiz - Lily Allen feels as if she's been transformed from a "happy-go-lucky" person into someone who is much older.
Last year, the star and her partner Sam Cooper lost their unborn son six months into Lily's pregnancy. She has spoken before about how hard the experience was to cope with, although the pair are now on the road to recovery. They married in the UK last month, with Sam revealing Lily is pregnant again at their wedding reception.
Lily, 26, was known for her outspoken attitude when she first found fame, but she feels completely removed from that person nowadays.
"Some people, especially when they're my age, you can see if they haven't had one of those massive experiences in their life; had someone who's died or been involved in an accident. I feel like I've gone from being a person who's happy-go-lucky to being someone who's been severely affected by something huge," she told the August edition of UK magazine Elle.
"It's made me more empathetic, a bit older. At the time I remember thinking, I can't believe I've spent so much of my life worrying about things that are really insignificant.' I guess I just feel a bit more guarded as a result."
Lily and Sam married in a church in Gloucestershire, where they have a home. She knows many were surprised by her traditional choice of venue, but has explained why they wanted to hold the ceremony there.
"People wouldn't have thought I'd have a church wedding but since I had the really traumatic experience last year our local community all pitched in," she explained. "We hadn't been there long, but after the news got out we received flowers and really heartfelt, beautifully written cards. Our vicar said a similar thing had happened to his family, so he would come over to sit with me. It feels really nice. We feel protected."
Earlier this year Lily admitted she had suffered from an eating disorder in the past. She lost a lot of weight, but explained she didn't do it healthily. She ended up drinking too much alcohol and is thankful Sam told her to change her ways.
"I think it came to a point for him where he was thinking, Can I be with this girl if this is what her life is like? I want to make this work, but I can't live in this world,'" she explained. "I knew. I just needed someone to tell me. I suppose I was doing all that because I wanted acceptance and if he was telling me that he'd already accepted me for who I was and I didn't need to do all this bulls**t, then it made me feel safe and secure It was like, OK, I can stuff all of that if you look after me'" (C) Cover Media